I don't have to do well

Yesterday, I had my driving lessons again after 1.5 months of no lessons. From my last post, I dealt with rejection, with trying to motivate myself day in and out at work with the impending end of contract at the back of my mind.

So, at breakfast I told my husband I was nervous about my lesson at noon. I said I was feeling stressed. He just said, no reason to be. Just go and have fun. I knew why I was nervous. I was afraid to make mistakes. He knew it of course but my husband is ever so gentle he just asked, "does your teacher still intervene a lot?" I said very little. "Well, he added, you havent had that much lessons yet." He's right. I need to actually give myself a pat on the back for learning quickly. And I need to remember, thats what lessons are for - to make mistakes! Don't know where it came from, as it certainly brought me relief, I said to myself "You don't need to perform, you don't have to do well." In the end, I did well yestrday. I also didnt realize I knew a lot about driving already at only 10 lessons. 

This morning I woke up and told myself that the more I trust myself about my learning curve, like I used to, the faster Ill learn and the more I will enjoy the process. More importantly, I can avoid unnecessary stress. I hope to keep on thinking this way until I unlearn perfectionism and stop masking my insecurities with it.