After Rejection

Today I just found out that my job contract would not be renewed. I was shocked. Almost 3 weeks ago, I had a conversation with my boss about working on my reintegration to my old role. When she told me the sad news today, I could only ask questions on what changed. 

I asked 3x why she changed her mind, why shes not pushing through with my reintegration program and Im happy I did. Im proud I did. 6 months ago, I wouldnt be able to ask this question at all and just accept what my boss said. I came from a culture where bosses are treated with such respect as a source of authority.

I know, despite my momentary lack of motivation to work because of what happened at the beginning of my career here in the Netherlands, I always had the interest of my teams. I know Im a people manager and that I am an effective coach. I am talented in building relationships in and out of my team, I am a quick learner and I am creative. With my determined spirit and intelligence, I can conquer any challenges in team management.

I realized that processing rejection is not an easy process. I need to feel the hurt and if I can get answers as to why, I need to get them. I have the right to know what to learn from.  As what my husband said, there is freedom in this. At least I know that I dont need to fight anymore. I can spend the next 2 months looking for a new opportunity and rebuild a new career path. It is time for a fresh start...

It is important for me to stay not just positive but to keep in my heart Gods promises. God is a good God. His plans are good, pleasing and perfect. He is always in control. As in the verse that I read also today, I will not stop praying....I pray that God gives me the grace to rise above this rejection stronger than ever, that He showers me with favor as I look for a job that will hopefully give me a knowledge migrant visa or that my husband could find a job soon so he can sponsor me in my stay here so I there wont be any gap between now and my new visa but most of all, may I yield to His will. 

God surpasses my strength and limitations. And because of that, I am powerful.